I mean, here I am drawing stuff (Azula, mostly) on a near-daily basis...and even a month ago I'd have laughed at you if you'd told me I'd be doing this.
Granted, I'm not the least bit surprised that Azula is the subject of the vast majority of my recent art. She's my baby after all.
But still. Even in the last month or so I can see improvement in my artwork by leaps and bounds. Frankly, it's completely blowing my mind. I look at some of the stuff I've drawn in the last few days and I just sorta sit there and wonder if it was really me who drew it.
I guess this semester off has been better for me than I ever imagined.
Granted, it's been far from easy. My first (yes, first) hip surgery went really well, but I suffered migraines for over two months after it. It was hard. I'm not the kind of person who enjoys laying around unable to do anything for myself. If I'm going to be a lazy bum, I'll be a lazy bum by choice.
Physical Therapy has been tough too. Not as tough as I thought it'd be....but then I tend to over-estimate how hard things will be. It's a good way to keep from being overwhelmed by any given situation.
And my grandmother passed away last weekend. That...that was tough. And I still don't think it's really sunk in just yet.
She always loved it when I'd sing; so for her funeral service, I stepped way out of my comfort-zone and lead one of the songs. Everyone says I did well, but personally, I feel like I could have done better. I feel like I have done better.
And all that on the heels of a confusing and emotional breakup. I still don't know what happened, and I doubt I ever will. That's something I've been working on coming to terms with this semester off; I hate not knowing things, but I highly doubt I'll ever know what went wrong.
And in a month (mid-May) I'll be having the same surgery on my left hip. I get the feeling that recovery process is going to be significantly more difficult since my right leg/hip has been weakened from the first surgery.
BUT. Better to get it done now than to need a hip replacement later on down the line.
But in spite of all the crap going on, creatively I've never been better. I'm writing regularly in a super-fun RP over on MM, and I'm drawing on a near-nightly basis. Partly due to the awesomeness of the RP, partly due to music, and partly (mostly) because Azula just won't leave me alone.
And honestly, I love it. She's always been in the back of my head just lurking...as if she's been waiting for something. And I guess it paid off. She's got me writing (my headcanon of) her story post-series...and her character development--which I've always known the results of--is just fascinating.
I can't tell you how many times I've wandered into my headspace to find her, Shego, and Raven (my OC) just sitting around chatting like old pals. It's a little disconcerting when they gang up on me (especially when I'm trying to cheat during PT...damn athletic types), but it's also oddly soothing.
They're there for me. And that's awesome.
AND now I sound completely mental. Oh well.
Anyway, that's an update on the Happenings of Jenna's Life.